I don’t know why.
Yes, you read that, right. Am I also certain in saying that I left this blog for a year? That, I supposed, will get me into 97% accuracy. For purposes not known to some, I checked my blog every now and then but I couldn’t find the momentum to write until now. I only have less than 30mins to travel for Law school but here I am typing here…
I admit my faults before. “Do not do unto others what you do not want others do unto to you.” This is one of the well-known mantra that every righteous individual must know. Because of the foreseeable nature of bullying, jealousy, and/or envy by some in college, I chose to stay farther from them. That made me remove a few in my friends’ list and give excuses for the benefit of their doubt. I reckoned that it’s best way not to meddle with unhealthy environment in college and just go on with the flow and study well, or study best.
Now I face the same dilemma with a different background. I have known this person for quite a while, albeit the absence of direct or personal meetings because I have known her through a common person whom we have this same connection. We became friends on Facebook, followed each other on Instagram and Twitter, until tables turned that we couldn’t apprehend the events-in-between us. She has known my side from the frequent posts that I made on different social networking sites, and for once we met, personally. Vice versa, I partly knew her and her stories. Different chats then and there, likes, comments…a day came that she removed me out of her life and pretended that shadows or footprints were unnoticeable. That was when I was “unfriended” or even blocked on Facebook and Instagram. You could prove it by the evidence of logging out your account, and fortunately checking hers if it’s shown, publicly. But I did it not for vain’s sake, but to prove my claim. I did it not to question her, but out of curiosity and nothing else. From the moment that I discovered the truth of my allegations, my eyes were teary. I did nothing more but pray and surrendered it to the LORD.
No one has the right to question a person because of his choice. That person is entitled to his freedom to choose whom he socialize with. And what happens between me and her or between me and some people during my college days best explains the abovementioned statement. You have no right to question that but to accept it and just shake the dust off. Honestly writing, I have no ill-feelings towards her for what she did, but it just makes me think thrice of my conduct towards her or her family. Maybe if I did something wrong, then, I should stop my preset now and end everything. If this would be the best way to end conflicts, then, why not? I am always open for negotiation, it’s only that no approach was made, as of now. The best thing to do? Well, just let it be. And pray.
I wrote this blog because I know that an accident will always have to pass that she can read this, just as how she and I also met:
If you are reading this, I want to say sorry for all the bad things I caused you in one way or another. I want you to know that I don’t have anything against you and I still love you no matter what. ‘Reminding the personalized cup you promised me before when you come home here. Thank you and I will always admire you for the great artist that you are! xoxoxo
That is all, readers. We all have these lessons that only lifetime can teach us when to resolve. Remember that every person has the best friends in the world, and the greatest of them is Jesus! More entries to come. Bear with me. Thank you! (P.S. I am so late for Law school, oh, no! It’s okay for my peace of mind, though.)
by: Samantha C. De Guzman