“How does it feel to be treated as if you didn’t exist? To love a person who doesn’t love you back? I guess, it’s hard. Agonizing. But you’ll grow stronger in the process. Or colder. Whatever that is, at least, you’ve passed onto an impeccable path.”
Do you have that inner passion to try something new? Come on. Ask for God’s guidance. He will give it!
“Dahil naniniwala ako na ang lahat ng bagay ay natututunan. At lahat ng bagay ay nagmula sa Panginoon, walang bagay ang hindi ko kayang gawin.” 😊
Here’s my second attempt to pencil-sketch a portrait. Truth be told, I thought sketching was not for me. As a child and until I reach the age of maturity, sketching has never crossed my mind. For I had conclusive presumption that this a NATURAL-BORN SKILL. Artists seem to stroke, effortlessly, and maybe, I couldn’t do it.
Summer 2016 🎸. I asked God to teach me guitar. After a boon if giving me one, I learned the basics. So I can now play and sing songs. Honestly, I made a promise that I would dare not try guitar because as they say, “Masakit sa kamay ang gitara. Nakaka-kalyo (Playing guitar is painful to the hand. You can grow calluses).” But I dismissed these comments and tried.
Early 2017 🎨. I became interested with watercolor painting. When I started mixing colors and applied them on the canvas, I just couldn’t stop to taste the goodness of the Lord!
The thing is, all the impossible things I once believed I could not do, I can now. And all these things came from Him. 🙂 It’s just a balance between confidence and humility. As Peter Chin wrote, “I CAN BE CONFIDENT BECAUSE GOD HAS QUALIFIED ME, BUT I REMAIN HUMBLE BECAUSE I KNOW THAT THE WORK FOR HE’S QUALIFIED ME IS NOT MY OWN. IT’S HIS!”
Let us discover more of the talents and skills we can learn!
You dream of becoming an astronaut? 👩🏻🚀Go, because WHY NOT? You want to be a lawyer? 👨⚖️Go, because WHY NOT? You want to be a public servant? 👮🏻Go, because WHY NOT?
Let us not be defined by how people see us. After all, their vision and opinion would not matter when we go around flying with zero gravity, defend a thousand people with ease, and serve our hometown 24/7. Nothing we do is ever useless for the Lord! (1 Corinthians 15:58).
More phenomena float in the ocean of suburban existence; more feuds pirouette at the galaxy of contemplation; and more unearthing revelations beyond the core of truth. How far will you go?
We all are impelled by different forces to conjure up ourselves. Generally, every person’s speech comprises of the usual words he hears or the tedious thoughts he encumbers every time. In some instances, one could possibly say what he wants to hear from someone or the least liked thing from the latter. What about you? What motivates you? This is more than a psychology-related write-up because I am not a psychologist. I am Samantha C. De Guzman.
Manifestations of the humankind also differ: beliefs are affected strongly by childhood cache of fears, intuitions, dreams, success or failure, and some other sentiments stocked through the hippocampus – the connections between neurons associated with memory. Let me take religious belief as an example. One can say that God is dead based on how he viewed a supreme being during childhood. Family plays a large role in defying a child’s intuitions as the former was his first teacher, the home his first school. Indubitably, a person could claim that God is not existing based on the cargo of millstones he has from the very beginning until this moment that no one seems to listen. Taking an atheist point of view, God is dead because no one can prove that He exists. A fallacy, isn’t it? You know a reasonable mind has a lot to prove than a shallow mind with nothing to disprove.
I taught Logic as part of every college student’s curriculum, a branch of Philosophy. And more than I could ever surmise, I enjoyed it! The struggles of teaching and learning while students learn more from you is the biggest premium than an educator could have apart from his impressive salary (Well, not for me. My salary is less than my daily needs). Applying both formal and material logic, I asked my students to distinguish between the truth and falsity of propositions, and let them prove or rebut to the class why or so. Debates were also applauded so you see great minds metamorphose into millennial personas fighting against the status quo.
Do you pick out now how vast and stupefying the human mind is? *speechless*
Let me get my idea straight now. As far as I am concern, I write when my mind flows like a river liberally sustaining the sea. When drought comes, you could not force me to dive with the ebb of typing. AM I REALLY STOPPING THE BEATING AROUND THE BUSH? SORRY. My motivation did not come from hatred or pain. It also did not originate from my own grace for it wholly came from a spirit so great that not even a human mind can probe: Holy Spirit. Honestly, it has been a while that I couldn’t get thoughts straight here. Most of my posts were solely illustrative probably waiting for another river to devour the waters of grace. So here I am now, the Spirit writing to you…
Beyond my arbitration, I surrendered to HIM, the Alpha and the Omega. Yes, I was exposed to brilliant ideas of great minds but the latter did not move my perplexity towards the Omnipotence and Omniscience of the Creator. Most, if not everything, yet, about me changed when I met HIM. All days are struggles, and every second is a sacrifice. I gave the fight of arguing to prove that I am right; I succumbed to the undeniable fact that a human is prone to mistakes, and as far as you keep on faltering, the more you forgive others’ debt. Life with HIM is not easy, but it is worthy.
I ache to know HIM more in my life, veritably. If tears and wounds are all I have, I would take them all to HIM and use them for HIS Greater Glory! I was supposed to be a slave, but through his mighty humility, we are all made his friends through His son. Are not lords supposed to be served? But He was made known here and dwelt among us to serve us. Sweet? No. Beyond explanation.
When your motivation comes from above, things may not yet transpire, perfectly, but they will and even more than your uphill battles. In contrast, when a thing, person or idea is your anchor of inclination, things may come to pass in fast-paced…yet, in the same manner, they would elapse in a split second. Or, more frustratingly, when they did not go as planned, would cause us too much burden to bear. See? When your source of hope is above you, He can bless you and shower you compared to a fountain leveled the same with you or below you. What could possibly be the result? Chaos.
In my previous posts, I coined myself as HIS Defendant. And as long as He wants me to achieve this mission, I would serve Him and fulfill my life’s purpose in this world: to offer my life to HIM and to others. Besides, it was all I could offer and if it was your everything, wasn’t it more worthy than anything?
“To the one who had much, nothing was in excess; to the one who had little, nothing was lacking.” (2 Corinthians 8:15)
This blog is by HIM and for HIM!
So what force motivates you? Comment below. Thanks!
by: Samantha C. De Guzman
“The things you hear about me are hand-me-down information. They deteriorate by the spell of time or by who delivers them. But if you want brand new ones, you can speak straight to me. Maybe you would even offer to buy them. Sorry, they are NOT FOR SALE.”
by: Samantha C. De Guzman
I will be my undoing
If I become my obsession.
I will forget the ones I love
If I do not serve them.
I will war with others
If I refuse to see them.
Therefore I choose to turn away
From my reflection,
To rely not on myself
But on my brothers and sisters,
To project always outward
Until I disappear.*(*Some members add a final line: “And only God remains.” That is at the discretion of each member, and is not compulsory.)
I realized how stuck I was on novels when I was still single because I was longing for love that time. And I believe that’s one of the reasons why singles prefer reading romance novels to going out because they’re caught up inside their own globe of love affair. Now that love has found me, I had set them aside – novels are no longer my top priority for leisure. Yet, at this very hour, I find myself chasing for more novels. And I don’t know why I feel like I’m fifteen, sixteen or seventeen, again…that solves the dilemma, if you know what I mean. Am I going back to the old days?
by: Samantha C. De Guzman